Should I waste that which spills from my soul? Should I dispose of haphazardly the many tellings which spring forth from cluttered and uncluttered thought alike? Such writs take shape with ease, gleaning from life’s treasures the simple and complex notions that wind their ways through labyrinths of ideas until finally taking shape in the guise of pedestrian words. Dare I forsake such a thing?
I am but a tool in the hands of creativity. A lithe bit of sandpaper destined to remove sharp edges from nature’s display. A rigid scythe meant to clear a path through grasslands too overgrown to be enjoyed by the masses. A sturdy bridge meant to convey observers across imagination’s mire. And a supple cloth to dry the sweat from a hard day’s work. These things am I… And more.
Green pastures stretch out before me like maidens lying in wait for gentleman callers. Hills rise like breasts from an earthen mother, and shores stretch like her lips around warm waters. Trees sway in the breeze like dapple braids of hair touched by loving hands. If indeed life is anything more than existing, it is a consummation, a marriage betwixt what is and what can be. I fear ever denying the embrace of this seductress.
In the tiniest of things I find inspiration; in the notation of them I find being.
I reap from fields sown of the universe’s seed. What comes from me, then, is the simplest interpretation of the greatest mysteries. To find magic in a single leaf hanging above my head while I travel paths ancient and new… To bend a twig and find upon it the hopes of a timeless soul wrapped in winter’s slumber… To stand by the riverside and hear sweet whispers from the commotion that hides beneath its still surface… Ah, to live in the now, in such a wondrous place, and to never wish to lift a pen so that I might complete the journey that I began… Blasphemy, it is. I would rather die.
Why toil with clumsy language? It remains clumsy only in the hands of those unlearned in its use, uneducated to its robust expression, and unfamiliar with its mystic secrets. Nay, the journal is the thing in which I conceal and through which I perform. Find within its borders the vellum of life, a papyrus upon which I paint in fine and broad strokes of words every bit of me, and every bit of the world where I reside.
Catharsis barely scratches the surface of why I blog; expression even less.
I find everywhere the riddles begging to be solved, the confidences left openly where none shall see them only to be discovered by those truly looking. By the rhythm of the sentence and the cadence of the photograph do I reveal such things as much to myself as to others.
For decades have I reveled in the joy of the journal. For almost a decade has that joy found new life in blogging. The universe opens her dress for me, welcomes me to her bosom, holds me close as I ponder the magnificence of her being.
Never could I give it up.
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