The measure of a life

Abstract image of a wooden footbridge with crepuscular rays streaming down through the trees (20080824_11279_c)

It took one tornado to fully appreciate Mother Nature’s power, one sunset to fully appreciate her beauty, and one solar eclipse to fully appreciate her complexity.

It took one dSLR and one day to learn how to take real photographs.

It took more than twenty years to figure out I didn’t need someone to be happy.

It took ten years with someone to see there are different kinds of happy.

It took the death of that someone to understand that every love lasts forever.

It took one true love to comprehend exquisite pain and sorrowful contentment.

It took waking up beside someone and feeling a profound sense of happiness that they were there to appreciate what it means to truly know.

It took nothing longer than a blink to comprehend that no creature in my care deserves to face death in the cold confines of a veterinary office.

It took until drinking age to face the reality of who I am.

It took one mercy killing to recognize I can’t be the cause of another creature’s death without feeling a part of me die.

It took thousands of books to learn thousands of books don’t tell the whole story.

It took one tale to recognize one is all it takes.

It took most of my life to understand the importance of living my dreams and making reality the existence I wish for.

It took one death to fathom the loss of a single life is a pain that never heals.

It took one true friend to teach me how valuable friends are.

It took a five-year grudge to comprehend that hate will never hurt anyone more than the person who harbors it.

It took repeated betrayals to learn that wise men forgive but only fools forget.

It took innumerable kisses to know that none will ever compare to the first one.

It took losing something I never had to appreciate how much I wanted it.

It took a lifetime to see a lifetime is both not long enough and far too long.  For anything and everything.

Frowsy fledglings

“Fascinating.  Mourning doves, house finches and northern mockingbirds are nesting side by side in the tree outside my patio, no more than a foot between each nest.  It’s like the avian suburbs.”[1]  That was my Facebook status update on April 2.

Thick evergreen foliage subverted my attempts to gratify a photographic jones for all three nests with parents brooding, let alone for the hatchling doves I could see feeding on crop milk.  Images taken these past weeks have shown limb and leaf and little else save the occasional shadow that might or might not be a bird.[2]

Yet my lack of pictorial success to date would not continue.

Yesterday I stepped outside to enjoy the unending rain but instead found myself beguiled by two frowsy fledglings.  More specifically, two just-from-the-nest mourning doves (a.k.a. rain dove; Zenaida macroura).[3]

Two fledgling mourning doves (a.k.a. rain dove; Zenaida macroura) sitting on the ground (2010_04_18_054045)

The parents briefly watched me from their perch on the patio roof.  Being mourning doves, they worry little about people.  And I’ve been around them so much recently that they know I’m no scapegrace and that I pose no risk to the children, so they went on with their preening whilst I photographically disported with the chicks.

A fledgling mourning dove (a.k.a. rain dove; Zenaida macroura) standing amongst some plants (2010_04_18_054096)

Deep shadows from an overcast sky coupled with the earthen and verdant colors on the ground proffered an oneiric setting for images as the two aptly colored young birds meandered about beneath the tree.  No matter my nearness to them, I did not discover the threshold for their flight response.  Instead, they glanced at me if I moved but otherwise discounted my presence.

Two fledgling mourning doves (a.k.a. rain dove; Zenaida macroura) looking up (2010_04_18_053915)

They did keep looking up at the adults on the roof, however, as if checking to make sure Mom and Dad hadn’t vanished.  This made for more than a few delightful giggles from me each time the chicks cocked their heads to the side and stared into the falling rain with monocular intent.

Two fledgling mourning doves (a.k.a. rain dove; Zenaida macroura) sitting on the ground (2010_04_18_054142)

They never strayed far from each other.  Where one went, the other was soon to follow.

Close-up of a fledgling mourning dove (a.k.a. rain dove; Zenaida macroura) (2010_04_18_054228)

The biggest hurdle I faced came from the patio fence itself.  The spaces between the slats are smaller than the end lens element, so clear views either meant standing up and leaning over the fence or finding that just right position through the fence where telephoto distance overcame the peripheral wood in the frame.

A fledgling mourning dove (a.k.a. rain dove; Zenaida macroura) walking across the ground (2010_04_18_053901)

The fledglings eventually moved through the fence and settled on the patio, and their parents came down to join them.  All four birds napped peacefully for the afternoon.

But by sunset I mindlessly walked out there thinking they must certainly have moved back to the tree.  The parents had, yes, but the juveniles had taken position on the fence, two fist-size bundles of feathers nestled together in the dark.

Long before sunrise this morning I found both kids in the tree.  By first light the entire family had vanished.  Off to face the world…

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Notes:

[1] Although I often refer to this tree as “the tree of life” for all the wildlife and wonder it brings near, it has a dark side for which I call it “the tree of death.”  It historically has been a killer of bird nests.  The tree is situated against the west wall.  This makes it a prime target for the violence of spring thunderstorm-related winds, hail and heavy rain.  It was heavy rain that wiped out all of the mockingbird chicks a few years ago, one at a time washing them from the nest, then from the tree itself.  It was a few years before that when strong winds destroyed three successive mourning dove nests with eggs, the same doves trying over and over after each assault.  But the paucity of spring thunderstorms this year has provided an unexpected opportunity for birds even as it has left me wondering about the mysterious atmospheric silence.

[2] I have captured photos of the parent birds as they built their nests and as they came and went from the tree.  Capturing images of these three species is an easy thing in this area and can be done throughout the year, so those pictures did not provide the fix I was looking for from these three nests.  The fact that the nests are just above eye level and within arm’s length of me made it all the worse that I haven’t been able to find a clear view for photography.

[3] It seems most appropriate that these birds are sometimes called rain doves.  The weekend brought nothing but precipitation and cool temperatures, so discovering the fledglings yesterday in the midst of steady rain felt all the more apropos.

Whatever

It starts with a great blue heron (Ardea herodias) spending the rainy afternoon fishing in the shallows.  Along comes a great egret (Ardea alba).  The second bird approaches the first.  Then a funny territorial spat seems imminent.  The great blue heron displays and rushes to intercept the egret.  The great egret ignores and walks on by.

These photos cover about 15 seconds of time.  The first three show the heron moving toward the egret.  Meanwhile, the egret strolls casually as if unaware of the heron’s presence, let alone its challenge.

A great blue heron (Ardea herodias) giving a territorial wings-open display (2009_07_26_027839)
A great egret (Ardea alba) strolling by a defensive great blue heron (Ardea herodias) (2009_07_26_027840)
A great egret (Ardea alba) strolling by a defensive great blue heron (Ardea herodias) (2009_07_26_027841)
A great egret (Ardea alba) strolling by a defensive great blue heron (Ardea herodias) (2009_07_26_027842)
A great egret (Ardea alba) strolling by a defensive great blue heron (Ardea herodias) (2009_07_26_027843)
A great egret (Ardea alba) strolling by a defensive great blue heron (Ardea herodias) (2009_07_26_027844)

In the end, the heron seems almost nonplussed, deflated even, and the egret seems rather nonchalant, the epitome of that oft overused dismissive interjection: Whatever…

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As an aside, the rookery has blossomed.  All but the cattle egrets have arrived, and I suspect that species will make an appearance in the very near future.  Ibises, anhingas, egrets and herons fill the motte, not to mention the several dozen other bird species who nest and/or hunt there.  It looks to be another great year for this urban marvel.  I can’t wait to share it with you.

Make me a stone

Standing on the patio.  Wind pushing me about like an atmospheric bully.  Sunshine in my eyes.

I want to squint.  I want to wipe the sweat from my brow.  I want to steady myself by shifting my weight.

Yet my mind keeps saying one thing to my body: Make me a stone.

I hear the titmouse before I see it.  On the ground.  Just on the other side of the patio wall.  And moving fast in my direction.

Make me a stone.

The bird hops around the brick wall and moves quickly under the shrubs toward where I stand.  Here and there it stops to pluck up some bit of fur left by the menagerie of wildlife that traipses through here regularly, like skunks, foxes, coyotes, raccoons, bobcats and opossums.  Each leaves behind a bit of themselves, a tuft of fur from a tussle or a few strands of hair from scratching an itch.  The titmouse wants that fur.  For a nest.

Make me a stone.

The feathered beast reaches the patio fence before I see it clearly.  It flits between the slats and perches momentarily to look at me, to determine my threat level.  For you see, a good deal of that wanted fur rests upon the patio floor.

Make me a stone.

All the while the little creature speaks in abrupt words I don’t understand but that still seem comprehensible to me.  I watch bits of fur plucked up here and there when it finally hops to the patio floor and continues its collection.  Always coming nearer.  And always watching me.

Make me a stone.

Within the confines of a single step away, the bird pauses, notices, takes a moment to realize the possible threat—me—looms over a sizable bit of raccoon fur that just so happens to be pinned beneath my foot.

It skitters toward me, little movements that can scarcely be measured.

Make me a stone.

Only my eyes move to follow the titmouse as it nears me.  Even with a beak overflowing with hair both coarse and soft, it wants that upon which I stand.  I hadn’t noticed the bit of hair before, but I’m now eminently aware of it.

If I move, the bird flees without the bounty.  If I don’t move, it must take the fur from beneath my sandal.

Make me a stone.

Then it happens.  With little more than a gesture of its wings, the bird is atop my foot.  Head cocked sideways to look at me.  I feel jittery nerves where avian feet clutch my skin.  I feel the bare wire of escape waiting to be shocked into action.  I feel only the slightest weight, hardly more than a breath against skin.

Pluck!  The fur is retrieved and makes the titmouse look like an unshaven beast, clutched fur spread all across its face.

One more glance upward, then gone.  Back to the fence.  Back through the fence.  Back into the sky.

Thank you for making me a stone.