Generations

The hope of any generation lies in that which follows.  It has nothing to do with today, nothing to do with us; it has everything to do with what comes after.

A juvenile monk parakeet (a.k.a. quaker parrot; Myiopsitta monachus) begs for attention(2009_06_07_022694)

Even as its parent watches me closely, a juvenile monk parakeet (a.k.a. quaker parrot; Myiopsitta monachus) begs for attention, for a nibble of nourishment.  Within that fledgling rests promise for a parent who may never see its child again.

A female river cooter (Pseudemys concinna) preparing to lay eggs (2009_06_07_022729)

Only a few steps from the footpath where so many people busy themselves without seeing it, this female river cooter (Pseudemys concinna) digs her nest and prepares to lay her eggs.  A bower formed of trees and brush gives her cover, keeps her from all but the observant.

Close-up of a female river cooter (Pseudemys concinna) (2009_06_07_022726)

How I want to wait, to watch, to salve my soul with the beauty of her work.  But the longer I stand, the more people who become curious.  Hungry eyes fall on her, look in her direction.

So before the first egg rests in earthen slumber, I walk away.  Several minutes I spend some distance along the trail so I can watch, feel certain no one returns.

Close-up of a female river cooter (Pseudemys concinna) (2009_06_07_022736)

The mother-to-be watches me closely as I retreat.  Her task set before her, she will never realize the success or failure of her endeavor, instead burying within the soil her own impetus to survive and leaving the future to the whims of nature.

Cliff swallow nest tucked into the corner of a concrete pavilion (2009_06_07_022782)

Cliff swallows (Petrochelidon pyrrhonota) build their clay nests in every corner beneath the roof of a concrete pavilion.

Cliff swallow (Petrochelidon pyrrhonota) peeking out from its nest (2009_06_07_022779)

Parents flit in and out of the structure, each returning to a nest with food, then checking the nest to ensure it’s clean and free of danger.  A face looks out at me, an adult watching me as it tends to its children.

Cliff swallow (Petrochelidon pyrrhonota) perched at the entrance of its nest (2009_06_07_022771)

I see tiny faces and beaks agape when diligent parents return with food.  Looking at me with consternation for my nearness, one makes clear my presence is an unwelcome concern when the future is at stake.

Morning

Vermilion hues tint the sky well before the sun rises, and where streaks of morning battle the indigo night, brushstrokes of crimson bleed across the stars.  Once again the world provides a dawn of such unspoken beauty that its description stumbles over words and loses itself even in deft writ.

I share the moment with cypress and oak and pecan, each silently participating in the spectacle of a day’s birth.  Pangs of loneliness envelope me as I long to share the experience, to speak of it in hushed tones and hurried whispers falling silently on ears eager to hear.  But only trees stand watch with me.

Maybe they’re right, these quiet folk, in that talking no doubt would sully the minutes with clumsy verbal instruments best left unsaid.  So I am grateful for their company.  Watchers all, they have seen more wonder in the universe than I can know.  Birth and death of a million days and a million lives, they stoically guard the world in statuesque defiance of all who would question them.  Even the birds lighting upon their branches know better than to doubt their resolve, and in the stillness of that grows the deepest of trusts.  Ah, but would I rend my own flesh to share in such a thing.

Driven from the night sky, stars blink out like lit candles blown by a gentle wind, and suddenly they’re gone with nary a goodbye.  I watch in awe as one by one they step down from their celestial pedestals and disappear behind a curtain of dim sunlight that struggles to seize the heavens.  They will be back, I know, and I will once again share the darkness with their brilliance.  But must they go so soon?

As the light of a new day crawls over the horizon and makes its way toward me, the limbs of my fellow spectators bend effortlessly at the touch of a warm breeze, a zephyr blowing across the water without losing its virulence.  They wave in greeting to the winged riders carried on its breath.  Some flit amongst the branches, landing here and there in what seems haphazard fashion.  However, I suspect this waltz has been danced so many times before that it has become a habit for all of them, the birds and the trees and the wind, a careful ballet to greet the first light and each other.

All too soon, awash in brightening reaches stretched from horizon to horizon, the stars are gone.  I wish them luck during their absence, and I assure them I will be here when they return.  Stillness is the response.

More and more the indigo retreats toward the west until it disappears, giving way to azure, then sapphire, and finally cyan.  All the while, vermilion races across the heavens until it too is pushed from existence.  In its wake, amber and gold first, and then, finally, bright yellow just before the sun climbs into the sky, a solar parade of one carefully offering its brilliance to all who welcome it, and forcing it on all others.

Even as dwellers of the day stretch and yawn and begin their rituals of wakefulness, beasts of various sizes and shapes, nocturnal the lot of them, scamper and scurry by as they make their way toward sleep, each to its den or burrow or nest or other place for daytime slumber.  We, the birds and trees and I, watch carefully, not interfering, and perhaps envy the nighttime creatures their escape from the busy world getting started around us.

Finally, as though a change of shift has taken place, one kind of life gives way to another, leaving only the beings of light in a world of light.  I find myself sated by the imagery and vision of what has taken place, the transformation of existence, the migration of living things.  Before starting the journey toward home, I bid farewell to all who have shared the moment with me.  It would not have been the same without them.

June beetles in August

Thud.  A sudden noise from above me.  Something akin to a rock bouncing against wood.  Then away it flies, a sizable creature, smaller than a hummingbird yet larger than most common insects.  I squint through summer sun and watch the shadow vanish around the corner.

This odd encounter gives rise to yet another similar incident, then another and another and another, until finally, some days later, one of the kamikaze brutes rebounds off the side of the house and lands just outside the patio fence.

Even as I lean over the ligneous obstacle for a closer view, the little giant pushes its way beneath a bit of fur and dirt and stone and twig.  The brightness of the day already falls upon its position, so I understand its desire to escape the searing Texas sun.

A green June beetle (Cotinis nitida) hiding under a lean-to made of debris (2009_08_02_028213)

Nevertheless, I want a better look, a view more respectable than what I can see.  So I intrude upon its hidden afternoon, pull it from its half-covered lair, and pluck away the wildlife hair that clings to its body.

It scrambles over rocky terrain until coming to rest in my shadow.  I move to give it light, so it moves to regain its shaded position.  I give up trying for better light and allow it the comfort it seeks.

A green June beetle (Cotinis nitida) walking across the ground (2009_08_02_028230)

Something about facing down a scarab beetle fascinates me, something more than the thrill inherent in such beautiful creatures.  The idea of scarab beetles somehow has taken on an air of danger, of flesh-eating monsters poured into sarcophogi where mummies were interred, where really bad people would suffer endlessly as these critters nibbled their tender bits.  Of course, sarcophogus means “flesh-eating” and I suppose the insects got a bad wrap based on that alone.

Still, I giggle childlike as the beetle hunkers down in shade cast forth from my body.  I think to myself how I can brag later to friends that the demon came and I stood my ground, and all my flesh remained intact throughout the encounter.

A green June beetle (Cotinis nitida) walking across the ground (2009_08_02_028251)

I make an effort to put the green June beetle (Cotinis nitida) back where I found it, back in its haphazardly dug lean-to made of debris.

The sun falls slowly and shadows become long.  For just an instant, the beetle is as tall as I am.  Then I leave it to its late August evening.

Listen with me

Can you hear them?  The tinkling of piano keys whispered on the air like so many bird songs?

The sounds are of peaceful contemplation, serene caresses to the ears that play upon the skin with chills.

First seen in audible things are the tappity-tap of insect legs carrying minuscule behemoths to and fro, this way and that, here and there.  Listen closely and you can feel the ground rumble beneath their tiny legs.

But o’erpowering such earthmovers are the flaps of e’er so many wings upon the air.  Flitting about with joyous abandon, a plethora of avian friends visit in brief images captured between blinks.

Offered in flight, from atop the roofs, within and amongst branches and leaves, they call out with voices so varied as to shame an encyclopedia.  I do wish they would teach me to speak.

Quietly, still as a statue upon a pedestal, chimes in the guise of the heartbeat of a rabbit waft upon cool air.  Longing to remain unseen yet aware of its exposure, my eyes listen as it dashes effortlessly across grass wet with morning dew.  Perchance I can hop to the beat of its pitter-patter.

While I watch, suddenly ears hungry for nourishment rest their gaze on the timbre of profound hues writ upon scaled wings.  A butterfly of magnificent colors floats by carried with great awe by respectful wind.  And my tongue trembles in delight with the tickle of its description.

Afar in the distance, yet still so near to me that I can feel it, my soul brushes against the red fox darting in and out of verdant camouflage, its eyes consuming the world in brief glimpses and powerful stares.  I see it, yes, but more importantly, I share in its journey.

Beating like the drum of life, powerfully the waves crash against rock and shore, the gentle spray lifted to heights I dare not reach, and in its excitement it adds its profound voice to an overwhelming chorus.

Can you hear these things?  If you really listen with me, perhaps you will.