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State of affairs

After what seemed like an eternity getting from diagnosis to surgery, my father went under the proverbial knife Thursday to remove the aggressive tumors invading his head from within his sinus cavities.  I believe we spent more than 14 hours at the hospital that day and felt at the end of it as though we hadn’t slept in weeks.

Stress, anxiety and lack of rest notwithstanding, however, the surgery went smoothly.  The tumors were not as large as the doctors originally feared, so it only took about two hours to remove the offending tissue.

Additional “unusual growths” were found and removed at the same time.  More testing will be done on those and the inverted papillomas to determine if he needs other follow-up treatments.

Meanwhile, he’s now home and feels much better than anticipated or expected.

Time will tell the ultimate outcome, mind you, but thus far we’re thrilled with the lack of problems, the overall prognosis and his quick recovery.

As for al-Zill, he’s had two introductions to the rest of The Kids.

Grendel has been less than welcoming.  As the alpha male of the clan, this comes as no surprise.  I’ll have to keep an eye on him to make sure he doesn’t do too much to damage al-Zill’s calm.

Kako has been…  Well, she’s been Kako.  Rude, way harsh, bitchy…  I like that she’s consistent.  Allow me to note one interesting moment: She walked right by him at one point without realizing who he was, probably assuming she was passing her brother instead of the intruder, and she casually went on with her business without ever looking at him, let alone hissing or growling or swinging or anything else.  I had to laugh about that.

Kazon demonstrated an ambivalent distance at first, a wee bit of hissing rigidity next, and finally topped it off with curiosity mixed with indifference.

Loki surprised me by letting al-Zill lie with him for a bit, a touch of mutual grooming included.  But then the devil showed his true colors with a sneaky bite and slap which sent al-Zill fleeing.  Typical.

Larenti seemed interested yet reserved, sniffing when the opportunity presented itself, offering a few playful swats here and there, and ultimately being the most welcoming tempered with reticence.

Vazra, as expected, showed true feline curiosity at first.  Once he realized no threat existed, he quickly became disinterested.  He’s his own cat, after all, and he really focuses on himself more than anything else.  He did take a few swings when al-Zill invaded his space, but these were nothing more than casual movements not intended to do harm.

As for al-Zill himself, it behooved him to be submissive and friendly, which is precisely what he did.  He offered rubs to every cat he encountered and gave plenty of space when the welcome was less than warm.  He cautiously roamed the entire house, sometimes with tail tucked and sometimes with it held proudly toward the sky.

A great deal of his time was spent investigating the windows and doors with a serious eye toward the patio.  Remember, that has been his safe spot and home for quite some time now.  It must have seemed eerily familiar yet alien to see it from this side of the glass.

He attempted escape once as I came back inside from the patio.  To be honest, it scared the hell out of me that he actually might succeed.  Recapturing him would present little problem, sure, but I’ve always feared for any of The Kids should they get outside.  al-Zill’s neurological problems make that concern sharper and clearer.

I salvaged the situation, however, and he remained in the house where he needs to be.  That ended his free roaming for now and he’s back in the bathroom where he can rest a bit and eat and drink without interference.  This respite also gives the other cats time to relax.

I’ll continue these outings for him over the next week, slowly increasing the time he spends freely outside the bathroom while monitoring for any unpleasantness between him and the other predators ruling the roost.  Unless something cataclysmic happens between now and then, I suspect he’ll be out and about permanently by next weekend.

As for me, I feel like I have a hangover from a week-long drinking binge.  Tired.  Sore.  Anxious.  Befuddled by a mental fog that won’t end.

Considering I was the only one of us children to attend and help with my father’s surgery, and considering I was the only one of four who has been there from the beginning to make sure we got through this successfully, I feel disappointed, heavily burdened, fatigued.

On top of that, capturing al-Zill last weekend and his following adoption and integration since then only added to the weight I carried.  Again I say Mom was right: Life has a way of piling up all at once.

I wish I could say the long weekend will help.  Regrettably, I go on call Monday.  The only rest I will get comes today and tomorrow.  The holiday is lost to me, as is the three-day weekend.

[note that I’ll begin work on al-Zill’s page in the next few days and will update the links in his posts while migrating those entries into the appropriate categories]

A full weekend, that’s no doubt

al-Zill spends most of tomorrow back at the vet for more tests.  He received his vaccinations as scheduled, but he also received dire confirmation of neurological damage that must be addressed.

Tumor?  Infection?  Skull damage that penetrated the brain?  Something else?  That’s what we hope to discover with his day-long stay at the doctor’s pad.

I drop him off first thing in the morning on my way to work and pick him up in the evening on my way home.  Poor chap.  I can only hope the result of this analysis does not require my full and immediate attention.

Because after that I head to East Texas for my father’s surgery Thursday morning.

I just spoke to Mom & Dad to confirm our plans.  Things are not as simple as they might seem.

His condition is, at best, poor.  He was unable to stay on the phone long because of that.  With the mix of medicinal changes and general fragility, he simply could not carry on a conversation for more than a few minutes.

As for my mother, she presents great strength that wells up from tremendous spiritual prowess, but even she has been weakened by this ordeal and the crushing weight of survival.  I am not fooled.

She so aptly pointed out how life has piled up this weekend for all of us.  Things are never simple when they matter.

I can’t say how long I’ll be unavailable or if I’ll be able to post updates—or anything else.

Due to The Kids needing more of my time than anticipated, I undoubtedly will spend the weekend jaunting back and forth from Dallas to East Texas.  I don’t see that as a problem.  Whatever it takes…

Do as the doctor ordered

Kako lying on the floor with sunshine flooding in from behind her (20080419_04137)

Kako abhorred enjoyed her annual visit with the vet today for her exam and vaccinations.  In truth, her unpleasantness was subdued compared to most visits.  Sometimes we should be grateful for what age can bring…

She did try several times to climb into the cabinets above the examination counter.  At home she enjoys the cupboards above the refrigerator, beneath the kitchen counters and below the bathroom sink, so this came as no surprise.  She was unfortunately denied this escape in the doctor’s office, and that meant she instead cuddled in my arms for shelter.  Oh darn!

Kazon sitting on the bed (20080426_04991)

Although her overall health and condition are good, she does have yeast infections in her ears.  That means medication for two weeks.

Given that both she and Kazon had terrible mite infestations in their ears when they were young, this comes as no surprise.  Neither of them can properly address ear cleanliness since both suffer from oversensitivity.

I need to do a better job with the Oticalm from now on to keep this from recurring.  Or so I hope…

Grendel lying on the floor with sunshine blanketing his back (20080419_04122)

While speaking with the doctor, she brought up Grendel.  You see, this is the same doctor who has spent a great deal of time helping him through his various health issues, from hip surgery to asthma to bladder and kidney stones to inflammatory bowel issues.

She mentioned, like Kazon, that Grendel can never again have vaccinations.  His intestinal disease is caused by an overzealous immune system.  Since vaccinations activate the immune system and heighten its sensitivity, giving him any vaccination would only aggravate the problem.

That means two of The Kids will forgo vaccinations.  So be it.

A close-up of al-Zill as he sleeps on the patio in the fading light of sunset (20080516_05305)

Finally, al-Zill is in the bathroom, captured earlier today and awaiting his chance to visit the doctor tomorrow before becoming the latest member of The Kids.  His reaction to being caught has been less than disruptive, more like reserved curiosity than uninhibited panic.  I find that a good sign.

Of him I know this: he needs tapeworm treatment, upper respiratory and rabies vaccinations, and flea and tick treatment (along with heartworm and other preventative medicines, the same as The Kids get on a monthly basis).  Once he returns from the vet tomorrow, I will begin the integration process just as I did with Vazra and Larenti.

Despite worries to the contrary, seven is not a terrible number, and it certainly doesn’t make me some bizarre feline fetishist who intends to grow a home full of cats until it becomes a health hazard.  I cannot rescue more, cannot fathom the weight of such an idea.

But I also know that, despite all those who have reminded me that we—I—can’t save every animal in need, I remain adamant with my response: “Why not try?”  Too many feel that self-imposed prerequisite burden is enough of a reason to abstain from attempt.  I feel no such limits.  Only my self-control and logical outlook tell me I can’t rescue more, can’t provide safe home and hearth for additional lives.

Nevertheless, he will no longer be an outside cat, no longer be a homeless vagabond living on my patio and, given his neurological damage and physical limitations, hoping to get through another day without suffering an unspeakable fate.

To be adopted

al-Zill looking through the patio fence (20080426_05040)

After tending to the dreadful wound on his head, al-Zill showed great improvement.  The severity of his neurological damage grew less with time.

But not entirely.

Still, when he shakes his head, he becomes a marionette under the control of hands plagued with seizures; when he stretches, his body caves in to demands of the mind that make little sense in the physical world; and when he leaps and runs, flailing limbs oft times leave him a bag of bones ripe for attack.

To make matters worse, he already has adopted me.  He all but lives on my patio, taking refuge each night in the cat carrier I placed there for his protection, awaiting my arrival each afternoon and my awakening each morning so that we might visit together, leaping into my lap at every opportunity, rubbing against my face with his head, kissing me, playing with me, and otherwise being family to me.

As Mom asked the other day, how could I leave him here, leave him to life at the lake, leave him to the whims of others who might not be as caring, as loving, as understanding, as kind?

The answer: I can’t.

al-Zill making a u-turn outside the patio fence (20080426_05043)

No doubt remains in my mind as to his ultimate disposition.  He will join The Kids in due time.  Soon.

Few would take on such a responsibility.  Few would tolerate such a needful life.  Few would give to one who requires so much.

But I would.

Peculiarity breeds intrigue

The juvenile squirrel came back today.

Quite surreal.

It strolled through the patio fence and toured the area.  Not hurried.

al-Zill followed closely, perhaps within a meter/yard of her at all times.

He seemed intrigued.  As did I.

My astonished gaze followed them along the living room windows, then I leaped from my chair and ran to the bedroom.

As al-Zill sat patiently and watched, the squirrel looked through the doors, scampered around the cat carrier, and went on with her investigation of the patio.

Then the squirrel walked up to al-Zill, stopping for a moment with one front leg held up and nose outstretched like an English pointer.

The pause was momentary, yet the two were no more than a hand’s width apart.

The squirrel turned and walked back through the fence.

al-Zill followed.

Up into the photinia bushes the little rascal climbed, and all the while the curious cat watched.

I can’t be certain what it was consuming, but the squirrel sat in the shrubs for some time eating and grooming.

The feline?  A short distance away lying under the tree, ever watchful, always listening, never threatening.

Then the squirrel climbed down and leisurely marched around the outside of the patio fence.

Marched right by al-Zill who looked on.  He easily could have reached out and touched the passerby.

Once the rodent turned the corner, the hunter stood and followed.

Neither ran.  Both walked.

I ran around the other side of the house to watch.

This peaceful encounter went on and on.

A bit of chase followed later.  Not hunting so much, at least not that I recognized, and little physical contact was made.

Then more walking, more following, more watching and being watched.

The squirrel eventually climbed a tree, a casual, unhurried climb, and perched withing leaping distance of the cat who lay below.

One groomed briefly while the other watched.  Then vice versa.

Bored or disinterested, or both, al-Zill eventually got up and walked away, after which the juvenile rodent climbed up until it disappeared in the dense cover of the treetops.

From start to finish, the event lasted more than an hour.

Sitting here now typing this post, I feel confused and fascinated.  I keep taking a mental inventory to see if perhaps I’m high on drugs or drunk on alcohol.

Having done no drugs and having consumed no alcohol, I’m left even more perplexed now than I was while watching this bizarre demonstration.

If the squirrel doesn’t fear cats, it will die soon given the healthy colony of felines here at the lake.

Is it too young to know any better?  Does it have some mental issue that interferes with its normal instincts?  Something else entirely?  I haven’t a clue.

As for al-Zill, he seemed more interested in play and satiating his curiosity about the strange little interloper than he did in hunting and killing it.

Does he need his own pet?  Are his neurological problems partly responsible?  Again, I haven’t a clue.

All I know is this: I witnessed an exceptionally odd interaction between predator and prey, between two creatures normally caught in the grip of a hunter/hunted relationship.

I don’t know what to think about the whole ordeal.

I definitely need a drink…