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Too sensitive to live in this world

A pair of fox squirrels (Sciurus niger) enjoying a bit of breakfast (20080921_12530)

As this CNN article points out, “[e]xperts say mental illness does not necessarily cause creativity, nor does creativity necessarily contribute to mental illness, but a certain ruminating personality type may contribute to both mental health issues and art.”

Hardly would I be so bold as to call myself an artist.  But ruminating?

Heavy dew on a blade of grass as morning sunlight pours over it (20080824_11348)

“Sensitivity to one’s surroundings is also associated with both creativity and depression, according to some experts.”

I have suffered with depression—manic and accute—since I can remember, since long before I ventured out into life on my own, since long before my family ever knew me as more than just one of the children, one of Jr.’s kids, one of the Hogle clan.  It had something to do with being gay, I felt, yet its claws dug much deeper than that, its venomous breath reaching to depths I scarcely knew existed.

A close-up of an immature pleated inkcap (a.k.a. fairy parasol, little Japanese umbrella or Japanese umbrella inky; Parasola plicatilis [formerly Coprinus plicatilis]) as it finds itself deluged by sunshine (20080824_11359)

“Some have pointed out that being engaged in creative pursuits makes a person more open to experience, while others say the pressure of being engaged in the arts causes negative emotion…”

Always did I pay attention to that which so many left unnoticed; always did I ponder that which too many left unconsidered.  A curse?  Perhaps.

Empty swings in soft focus and morning light (20080727_10172)

“‘Creative people in the arts must develop a deep sensitivity to their surroundings — colors, sounds, and emotions,’ says Mihaly Csikszentmihalyi, professor of psychology and management at Claremont Graduate University in Claremont, California. Such hypersensitivity can lead people to worry about things that other people don’t worry about as much, he said, and can lead to depression.”

Certainly I’ve been accused of paying too much attention to things that a majority ignore.  In fact, I’ve been told I notice more by orders of magnitude than others who stray within the same spaces I often haunt.

A fence of barbed wire and roughly hewn timber surrounds a pasture of hay bales (20080809_10529)

“‘The arts are more dangerous [than other professions] because they require sensitivity to a large extent,’ [Csikszentmihalyi] said. ‘If you go too far you can pay a price — you can be too sensitive to live in this world.'”

Am I so inclined as to be oversensitive?  Am I too observant as to be a burden upon those around me with my constant noticing, my constant feeling?

And is this the cause of my dreadful sense of doom that vexes me at every turn?

Am I just too sensitive?

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Photos:

[1] A pair of fox squirrels (Sciurus niger) enjoying a bit of breakfast.

[2] Heavy dew on a blade of grass, each droplet dazzling like a jewel in the morning sunlight.

[3] A pleated inkcap (a.k.a. fairy parasol, little Japanese umbrella or Japanese umbrella inky; Parasola plicatilis [formerly Coprinus plicatilis]) not yet mature yet facing its demise under the blanket of hot sunshine.

[4] Empty swings in soft focus and morning light, the scene left just as I found it on a hot and humid day when early morning felt as stifling as late afternoon.

[5] A captivating fence made of unprepared timber and barbed wire stretching around a pasture that holds nothing more than hay bales.

You in danger, girl!

Warm evening air greeted me as I stepped outside last night.  These little jaunts to the patio represent the only means of escaping my on-call hell.  Being tied to a computer 15 hours out of each day leaves no room for much else.

Yet feeling robbed of walks at the lake during such times doesn’t mean I can’t enjoy nature.  Living at an urban nature refuge means nearly as much life can be seen roaming about outside my own door as can be seen were I to venture to the lake itself.

Last night was just such a moment, an instance when nature came to me.  Albeit under stressful circumstances, and I don’t mean for me.

al-Zill lounged comfortably just outside the fence.  His attention seemed focus upward, toward or into the bushes I thought, although my view was limited and he just as easily could have been looking up into the sky on the other side of the hedges.

I had seen him leaping into the photinia bushes from time to time, something I assumed meant he was chasing one of the many birds or insects or lizards that use the foliage for hunting, for nesting, for off-the-ground transportation, and for camouflage.  The stealthy black feline always returned to the ground in that clumsy way for which he’s known[1], and always with empty paws and jaws showing he failed to capture whatever he was chasing.

The moment I stepped out the bedroom door and spied him, he turned, saw me, and came running.  This is the usual course of things; to wit, he dashes to my side the moment he sees or hears me, rubbing endlessly against me in an effort to give as much affection as he receives.

After a few minutes of petting and rubbing, him rolling around and giving me head butts the whole time, we had moved close enough to the food and water for him to realize his belly needed filling, so off to dinner he went.

al-Zill grabbing a bite to eat from the food bowl on the patio (20080322_02781)

My attention no longer diverted by this joyfully needy and loving cat, I stood, took a sip from my beer, and turned toward the fence.

I immediately saw Psiwa lounging beneath the tree inside the protection of the photinias[2].

Psiwa lying beneath the tree and behind the photinias as he looks up into the bushes (20080322_02789)

He likewise seemed to be watching the bushes intently.  Too intently.

Psiwa, seen from behind, as he looks up into the photinia bushes (20080322_02782)

I felt this warranted a closer look, what with two cats within spitting distance of each other who both appeared enraptured by something, something hidden amongst green and red leaves and the maze of limbs that supported them.

So I scanned the verdant growth looking for…  Well, looking for whatever they were so interested in.

It didn’t take long for me to find it.

A juvenile eastern fox squirrel (Sciurus niger) precariously hanging on within the cover of photinia bushes (20080322_02796)

Precariously slipping from branch to branch, sometimes stretched to her body’s limit trying to keep herself as high as possible, a juvenile female eastern fox squirrel (Sciurus niger) scarcely bigger than my hand clung to life by a thread, a thread represented by whatever protection the shrubbery could provide.

With two cats already aware of her presence, that seemed little protection for such a defenseless creature.  Felines are patient and skilled hunters.  An immature and frightened squirrel stands little chance of escaping.

I then decided I should intervene.

I went back inside and exited through the front door, walked around to the outside of the patio, and located the poor thing.  Even as I approached, it scrambled a bit, a clumsy attempt to remain unseen and safe.

A close-up of a juvenile eastern fox squirrel (Sciurus niger) as she perches within the cover of photinia bushes (20080322_02802)

Despite its small size and cute visage, I knew trying to grab it was a poor idea, yet nothing else sprang to mind.  If I held it in my protective arms, at least then I knew it would not fall victim to predation by domestic felines looking for the enjoyment provided by the pursuit and capture of small darting prey.

But I had no intention of trying to grab it.  There is a great deal of nature that can be touched, from plants to insects to reptiles to arachnids to crustaceans to every other kind of life imaginable.  One need only know what is safe to touch and what is better left untouched.

A young frightened rodent is nothing to be trifled with, especially one who likely has been trapped in a hopeless situation for quite some time.

Yet what chance did a single human have to intervene when two killers had already marked the target, and the target itself possessed none of the skills necessary to escape, not strength or speed or intellect?

I stood silently[3] as close to it as I could without posing an imminent threat, at least one greater than the cats, and I pondered what course of action I could take.

Thankfully, a timely diversion bigger than me came around the corner, one that could not be ignored.

Someone across the road was receiving a large delivery of plants from a landscaping company.  The truck and its two deliverymen rumbled about making all sorts of noise, the lot of them finally coming quite near where I stood at the edge of the concrete.

The cats retreated long enough for the squirrel to leap from its ligneous hideaway and scramble beneath a nearby parked car.  al-Zill saw it, though, and he followed quickly.

Withing striking distance of the poor thing, me flailing crazily as I tried to divert his attention, the truck rumbled to life one more time to reposition itself for unloading.  That brought it right to the squirrel’s position.

The cat ran back through the bushes fleeing the giant monster, and the little gray visitor ran eagerly beneath the metal giant, out from under the other side, and quickly disappeared up a tree that gave it easy access all the way to the lake (from tree to tree to tree).

Did it survive?  While under my watch, yes.  I can make no other claims.

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[1] Having grown confident al-Zill does suffer from some kind of neurological damage, he tends to be less graceful than most felines.  Climbing into the shrubs around the patio is relatively harmless in that regard since he can’t fall far and has difficulty getting very high due to the dense limbs and foliage.

[2] I’ve said before that al-Zill and Psiwa get along.  That’s generally true, although not always.  This can be blamed on al-Zill and his mental issue(s).  Sometimes he greets Psiwa like an old friend, sometimes he ignores him entirely as though he’s not there, and sometimes he challenges him similar to the way one might challenge a home invader.  These dichotomous positions remain unpredictable, sometimes occurring within minutes of each other.

[3] Some might have provided soothing words to the poor little lass hoping to calm her racing heart and let her know help had arrived.  Those words, although comforting to human ears, might have been heard very differently by the squirrel.  Domestic cats, for instance, when in distress, are actually frightened and agitated by the soft tones and cooing verbiage we associate with peaceful reassurances.  Most people never realize this, and most people equally never realize those heartfelt gestures mean little, if not the opposite, to species other than humans and dogs.  While each individual will react according to its own personality, most animals receive little if no benefit from such acts.

[title shamelessly borrowed from “Ghost”]

In the eyes of the squirrel

I’ve spoken previously of the fascinating reflective property of cat eyes.  Mentioned once regarding Loki and mentioned again regarding Kazon, I know there are plenty of other examples from The Kids going back through a good number of the photos on this site.

But in that first post I also pointed out that “it’s interesting from time to time when seeing the differences between various species and what the light brings out (e.g., squirrels reflect amber or orange, opossums and raccoons reflect white, humans reflect red, and so on).”

Since today I lack the energy and ambition to really write something worthy of sharing with you, I thought it was a perfect time to revisit that statement with a bit of visual confirmation.  So here are two flash photos of a squirrel munching on nuts and seeds that clearly demonstrate precisely what I was saying.

Both photos are of an eastern fox squirrel (Sciurus niger) and were taken at close range.  This particular “tree rat” (as Libby loves to call them) trusts me, has taken almonds and pecans directly from my hands, and doesn’t mind me milling about while it’s visiting.  I don’t know its gender and haven’t asked it to lift its skirt so I can take a gander.  Sometimes it’s more appropriate to respect privacy than to ask for such personal information.

A close-up of an eastern fox squirrel (Sciurus niger) showing its amber-colored ocular reflectivity (149_4993)
A close-up of an eastern fox squirrel (Sciurus niger) showing its amber-colored ocular reflectivity (150_5004)

June’s close encounter

Last June I sat at the base of my favorite tree, the lake soothing me with casual tongues of water lapping at the shore and a plethora of wildlife jaunting about or lounging in whatever shade they could find so as to escape the broiling Texas sun.  Even as my ancient flora friend graced me with shade from simmering heat, I likewise knew the animals sharing that moment with me looked for whatever cover was available to them.

I had a book with me: The Krone Experiment by Dr. J. Craig Wheeler, the regents professor of astronomy at UT Austin.  Let me say now that Dr. Wheeler is a gracious man, intelligent and witty, and a perfectly fine, truly intellectual gentleman.  We’ve corresponded before.  In fact, he recently sent me a signed copy of The Krone Experiment in hardcover form as it’s no longer available and my paperback version had suffered terribly over the decades since I purchased it.  The novel itself is a suspenseful tale of science gone wrong, of political and international intrigue.  Despite having read it many times before, it’s a faithful companion to me and a good friend to have along on such trips.  (Assuming Dreamdarkers becomes a published novel, I will be sending him a signed copy as thanks for his inspiration, entertainment, and generosity.)

So I sat in the shade of a timeless friend reading a narrative as comfortable as an old sweater.  At some point, I casually glanced over my shoulder for what at the time seemed to be no apparent reason.  Of course, I knew ducks had found some shade trees behind me, and I also knew a gaggle of assorted geese and a dray of squirrels had been wandering about when I first came to sit in that place.

What I spied with a simple glance eventually became my close encounter.  It started with this:

An eastern fox squirrel (Sciurus niger) approaching me from a distance (146_4643)

The eastern fox squirrel (Sciurus niger) galloped casually over green grass burning in the noon sun.  It seemed to be watching me, although my position and the distance between us prohibited me from being certain of that impression.  Yet it did appear headed for the very tree against and under which I sat.

So I laid the book aside and grabbed my camera.  A bit of subtle maneuvering brought me around the tree enough to comfortably watch the little beastie at it marched quite deliberately in my direction.

An eastern fox squirrel (Sciurus niger) approaching me from a distance (146_4645)

Even as I clicked away at the camera controls snapping photos, this “tree rat” (as Libby is so fond of calling them) walked and leaped and trotted in my direction.  I felt certain I had nothing to do with it, but instead the tree sheltering me with lush foliage truly was the intended target of this visitor.  And then it stopped.  But not just stopped; it stood and carefully examined me.

An eastern fox squirrel (Sciurus niger) standing and looking at me (146_4646)

Only then did it slow the closing of whatever distance rested betwixt us.  While I cannot be certain as to how far away it was at that point, I know a casual toss of the camera would have landed it on top of the squirrel.  Yet it didn’t stop.

No, it didn’t stop.  It walked more casually, more carefully, but it kept coming nonetheless.

An eastern fox squirrel (Sciurus niger) approaching me from nearby (146_4647)

I continued snapping pictures.  Daring not to move suddenly lest I frighten the guest, and certainly not so selfish as to believe the tree meant its comforts solely for me, I sat quietly and as still as was possible given my position kept shifting slightly to keep the approaching squirrel in sight and focus.  And still it kept coming until finally it paused, then only an arm’s length from me, and again it focused all its attention on me.  I could even see my own distorted reflection in its eye as its head turned first this way then that.

An eastern fox squirrel (Sciurus niger) taking a very close look at me (146_4648)

When at last I felt I might explode from the excitement of its nearness, it challenged me to hold my place by coming ever closer, ever nearer, until finally it stood next to both the tree and I.  Seeing myself in its eyes held power over me, a controlling dominion of sorts I could never explain, and there we stayed for but a moment.  I sat motionless and watched as I carefully took another picture, and it stood with an intent gaze fixed upon me.  How wondrous.

An eastern fox squirrel (Sciurus niger) standing quite near and watching me (146_4649)

And then it nonchalantly turned and climbed the tree with effortless abandon.  Its quick scurrying carried it up directly above me until finally it came to rest on a limb, tossed its arms on either side of its welcoming bed, and there it napped in the safe embrace of our ancient tree friend.

[you can see the photo of the squirrel napping in this post from last July, and an additional close-up from the squirrel’s approach in this post from last June]